Unstable life

Recently I only realise I am lack of some finance skills. I feel that i always not enough money to use no matter how much I had earned. I love expensive things, this might be one of the reasons. Recently I just bought two high technology devices. I am regret why I bought those devices. What can I do with two devices? Cost > benefits...

I learned something after this. I would like to save more money even though It got a bit too late now. I swear I am not going to change my phone until my phone out of service. Save money for buying house, get marry and etc.

Recently my problem getting serious. I almost cannot control my emotional by scolding people with small matter. How come I become like this? Over pressure? Sicks? I also not sure. What I know now I try to stay away from peoples now. I need a personal space, I like quiet, I like to be alone. I do not know when it start to be like this situation. I hope I can find the answer. I was finding the answer for almost two years. Please, who can tell me the answer?

I am afraid to work in big firms. Not because of my ability but my healthy problem. I do not know I can stay for how long. I just try my best to fight until the days i cannot hold it anymore. I think the day is coming soon. I just need an important person to stand beside me and support me whatever I do.

Last but not least, I just expressed my negative feeling here to be more positive person in real life. I hope everyone who reading my blog just ignore what I was mentioned here.

Thanks

Gino 09/12/2013