Unstable life

Recently I only realise I am lack of some finance skills. I feel that i always not enough money to use no matter how much I had earned. I love expensive things, this might be one of the reasons. Recently I just bought two high technology devices. I am regret why I bought those devices. What can I do with two devices? Cost > benefits...

I learned something after this. I would like to save more money even though It got a bit too late now. I swear I am not going to change my phone until my phone out of service. Save money for buying house, get marry and etc.

Recently my problem getting serious. I almost cannot control my emotional by scolding people with small matter. How come I become like this? Over pressure? Sicks? I also not sure. What I know now I try to stay away from peoples now. I need a personal space, I like quiet, I like to be alone. I do not know when it start to be like this situation. I hope I can find the answer. I was finding the answer for almost two years. Please, who can tell me the answer?

I am afraid to work in big firms. Not because of my ability but my healthy problem. I do not know I can stay for how long. I just try my best to fight until the days i cannot hold it anymore. I think the day is coming soon. I just need an important person to stand beside me and support me whatever I do.

Last but not least, I just expressed my negative feeling here to be more positive person in real life. I hope everyone who reading my blog just ignore what I was mentioned here.

Thanks

Gino 09/12/2013

Valentines day "again"

Valentines, couples, in the relationship, love, dinner, movie, and more appear on my Facebook and other social network. Normally this day I will hang out with my friends who is still single and gossip with them. But I am not going to hang out with anyone this year, I want to enjoy my whole day alone because I feel meaningless even I hang out with any friends.

The most important person today was working for whole days. She is working at florist and sending out many of flower to customer. But how about herself? At this moment I question myself, "should I send flowers to her?" or "just date her for dinner?"but at last I choose to stay at Oldtown White Coffee and update my blog.

The reason why I am here is because I afraid of something after I ended up my relationship last time. I totally do not have confident to chasing girl recently. I not dare tell the girl that I like her and date her now. I scare I will be rejected by her or we cannot be friend again. Maybe this is a common thing for guys, but this is different for me.

I am trying to fight with this in order to start with new relationship. But I has a question. Does any girls like the guy who is mature, handsome, rich, intelligence? Actually I should give myself more confident.

New year new hopes =)